"WELL OOH LA LA."
I am downloading suspicious files. My whole body hurts including my mouth and Im not so fond of it. @ training friday _ asked me 2 mentor her son. She said he was "unmotivated". Idk what this means and it is sort of worrying. I am thinking of asking her 4 clarification. Idk what 2 tell him. I am not a good example.
there are lots of transgender 14 y/o s volenteering @ my workplace. Little do they know I was the first (_'s other kid was the second but they are not here this summer). It's weird. I do not necessarily want 2 be a role model, as in, I don't want to show him that you can become tolerable. I do not think we should be tolerable but in this setting I am. Unmotivated to do what? When I was his age I was more than unmotivated. I still think I count as this. Not a good example.

Started Earthbound Beginnings 2day. "let's all do things to prevent killing ourselves this summer". I am terrible at this. Went 2 stupid resterant w/ RE on saturday. I was very tired bc her + KS had stayed over. There was a group of boys in probably early high school at the tall table Bhind where RE wanted 2 sit. I was facing this table. There were many times the boys whispered 2 eachother behind their hands and I can't be sure they weren't talking about me. Havnt been in therapy and have no desire to. I cannot convince myself that stuff like this is a product of anxiety. Multiple times it has been proven to me it is not. Again. Bad example.

As this was happening, I had the very breif fantasy of telling her. This did not happen because I actually have no desire to. My parents are watching family guy. I'm going to call ED b4 her thing. "I told you our parents have the same eating disorder". They do. I am proud of my friend. Yeah I did not tell her. Or LK l8r when we smoked w/ him. Bc that would be a terrible humiliation and ig being too good @ being nonbinary is better than being terrible @ being a man. Not generally but in this particular situation I just don't want to. I hate it though. Obviously. Makes me feel very sick. They're not dimorphic like that stop comparing youself to a different species. Got distracted.

Enter key doesn't like 2 work anymore but only here. How obnoxious. Male guro hward to find.

feeling quite badly. Good game. Have yet 2 finish. different. different. I want things. Reflective surface. box.