"There are some people whose dread of human beings is so morbid that they reach a point where they yearn to see with their own eyes monsters of ever more horrible shapes. And the more nervous they are—the quicker to take fright—the more violent they pray that every storm will be . . . Painters who have had this mentality, after repeated wounds and intimidations at the hands of the apparitions called human beings, have often come to believe in phantasms—they plainly saw monsters in broad daylight, in the midst of nature. And they did not fob people off with clowning; they did their best to depict these monsters just as they had appeared. Takeichi was right: they had dared to paint pictures of devils. These, I thought, would be my friends in the future. I was so excited I could have wept.
I’m going to paint too. I’m going to paint pictures of ghosts and devils and horses out of hell.” My voice as I spoke these words to Takeichi was lowered to a barely audible whisper, why I don’t know."

Dazai, 27. Saved because horse and paint and phantasm bluh.

06/10/2026: "Bob's 50th birthday suprise"

have 2 pee quite badly but I want 2 talk to you my website.
Family reunion. @ my house. My grandparents are here but I get 10 minutes b4 the strangers arrive. Tired. Very helpful. It's good 2 be busy. "I left my cellphone dead @ the house". I'm going 2 shave.

comma is important. We can only be so patient. Andy. We can only be so patient Andy. Can't keep doing this. Want a real life.

SOme more bullshit. Am I going to want this online come tommorow morning?