05/06/2026: "these are just a couple of my cravings"

"and then there's those other things"

Photo of me in hoodie with thumb over most of face. Only left eyebrow has been unobstructed. It is pierced.

05/07/2026: same thing

Writing from last night. Keep trying and getting distracted trying 2 sucessfully do something I've already done.

"i am ready to try"
"for some time"
"that doesn't mean that anymore"
"but someone punched it eight times and it looks cool"
"the adults are stroking"
it is 4:-03 am.

I did not get very far. I'm not getting far right now. I drove home with her yestertoday and it was really good. I liked it. Last year, everything was bad. We both kept saying horrible things. Todayerday I only felt horible when I got home. She played a song. Really good. Raining very hard. It's been so dry in new york. Now I am laying in bed listening to it. I've mentioned it more than once now. Be sure to know which it is. I am hoping not to ruin it.


Have been trying to get this 2 work 5 ever. I had to host it on tumblr. Sorry about that. Sometimes things are so beautiful and then nothing. I am so embarrassed. Writhing. Not cool. Nowhere 2 be honest. When I think something is beautiful it makes me happy and then very very sad. I am coming down with something. Should be sleeping.

I've been hit by the bus of love! I Haven't! I'm Envious! I don't know what to do tommorow to make sure everything goes well.
4 the rest of my life.